Thursday, November 29, 2007

I not know where to start, but I start


I not know where to start, but I start
I taking the children into middle part of London. Bella and Tom they needs to be together to discuss things and have their Quality Time. Bella is lighting many aromatherapy candles and they is waving us goodbye in their dressing gowns. Tom he look worried.
I does the non-Quality Time. I never see so many people! We goes to Hamleys toy shop (for children that has everything there is always something more and it always expensive and makes lots of noise). Then we go to Topshop in Oxford Street: is place where everyone go to look like Kate Moss (model look good in grandad’s shorts, she don’t need to go to store). Then big things happen.
BIG THINGS HAPPEN! I see all these nice young men sitting on sofas waiting for their girlfriends in changing rooms and I imagine Sven is waiting for me. Then, oh, no, I see that one is HIM! And then this blonde girl, she so lovely tan, natural, come out in nice green tunic top. She turn round and round in front of him. I greener than cloth. I make to walk away. My heart go down. Why he so nice to me over Cressida kitchen table, then having a blonde in Topshop? I take kaftan in nineteen sixties style and we all goes quick into changing place. I tell Theo to close his eyes. But we soon see note appearing under curtain. It say: ‘Monika – come and meet my sister, Bibi.’
I go out. Sven he say he has enough shopping with his sister, who in London for shopping trip. I is like Japanese flower that been put in glass of water. He ask can he come with me and children – imagine how my heart go up!
We have promise Theo to go in London Eye (this big wheel that go round and
round. You see all over London and let everyone know where your nan live.). We is all going in one capsule when Sophie she see how I like Sven and she make it that we in separate capsule to children – thank you, Sophie, you not know how grateful I am eternally.
I not seen Sven so nervous as when Eye starts. He look at me, his blue eyes so piercing and yet gentle. I wanting them for my bead box.
He say ‘I have to look at you, Monika.’ I say this alright. I hold his hand.
It is cold and wet. He say he has vertigo; if look out will give rise to
vomitous situation. I look him in eyes. He has risked the vomit for me.
Thank you very much my dearest.
He kiss me. He kiss me as ground go away beneath us.He kisses me all 360 degrees. I forget everything, even Cressida. When I look next we is back at start. Is like being in heaven and I forget everything else.
‘I have liked you ever since we first met, Monika,’ he say. I say I like him
too. I wish another 360 degree. I close eyes again. He say there is
something important he want to tell me. It is very good news, he say. He has
been signed up by modelling agency and they has work already for him.
Cressida know someone in agency. It will help pay for his college course when he back in Sweden, but he won’t be so much in Muswell Hill now. I not know whether to be happy or sad.
But is my good-looking boyfriend not going to be famous male model? Is not
we a dream couple like the Poshes and Becks? But then I remembering Mrs Awale. I ask if he doing less in Muswell Hill if she could be doing some of it. He will ask Cressida. He kiss me again. I want it last forever. I not telling him about Arvo Pitkin. Ever.
We go back to Crouch End. There is nice smell of Body Shop at Merryfields but Tom and Bella they is looking depressed. He is reading book on history of Uxbridge. Is not married life as we wish it in Estonia.

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